Before 2025 end.....
In the past years, whenever the end of the year was approaching, I already knew what I was genuinely grateful for. But 2025 felt so strange — because apparently, I can’t pinpoint what I’m truly grateful for anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful for whatever happens, and I believe there’s always a reason behind everything, but I just can’t feel the genuineness of it. And I don’t know what happened to me. This year, I faced so many problems — losing my government IDs, and resigning from my job because of my education. I honestly thought I could still make things happen and graduate on time, but apparently, because I wasn’t able to take those major subjects and because of a new curriculum, it’s no longer possible. I became an irregular student, and it hurts — because I sacrificed so much, and still didn’t make it. What hurts even more is that I don’t want anyone to know. I feel like a disappointment, like a failure, and I’m scared that people will see me that way too. I didn’t liv...
